There are moments when things seems less stable than before and external stimuli cause big internal battles. It is at these moments that i feel carried away. I seem to zone out as I try to cope with what is going on in side of me and lose track of the world. Some would say a panic attack but it is never that simple.
Carried Away
The turmoil it drags at me, pulling in all
directions
Carried Away
In that
split second after, I am paralysed
and washed
away from the present.
Now just flashes of light, snippets of sound,
the odd word
and anger, despair, resentment and pain.
Weightless buffeted and bashed
I tumble headlong uncontrolled without falling
confused by
a dizzying assault on my senses.
Panicked
and scared I try to understand what’s around me
I cannot keep up, I cannot even pretend as I
spiral out of control
I know not where or what is going to happen.
It changes
so fast without stimulus;
I am lost
yet some things still seem known
I feel the
impending loss of cohesion and will it to happen.
Escaping
the friction and strife that connects me
then each
part would be free to be as it wants
The balance
is tipped I am free
yet still I
am here not calm and serene but alive
I know not
how or why this world has pulled me apart
nor how I
still live but I am here.
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