Forgive me World

I don't know about you but there are days when I feel chronically guilty for how much I feel. It isn't so much that I feel but that I need time to deal with the feelings that I have when it seems the rest of the world is impatiently tapping it's foot waiting for me to be okay with things that it just doesn't seem to have a problem with.

Forgive me world for I have sinned
I want to hide away from those who cry and moan
who’s lives are not so good.
I want instead to have a life that pleases me
that lifts my soul and makes me glad.

Forgive me world for I have sinned,
work has depleted and depressed me.
I cannot take the empty disregard
I have tried so hard, but all I want is rest
and to enjoy the wonders of this world.

Forgive me world for I have sinned
I do not have a happy smile,
this life it throttles me and
icy fear has sapped my will live.
I cannot take the pain it dishes out.

Forgive me world for I have sinned
I cannot be the woman that you want,
I cannot hide the tears or forget the angry words
I want a life where there’s time to feel and be felt.

Forgive me world I cannot change to suit your needs
I feel so much I have no choice,
I need the time to think it through
to find what works for me

and the will to live again.